A real story of homelessness, addiction…and transformation

Homelessness - Grace, Truth and Transformation coverGrove Books have just published this booklet called ‘Homelessness: Grace, Truth and Transformation‘ by myself and Chris Ward.

I first met Chris at a Housing Justice seminar at the Greenbelt festival where he stood up and shared his own story of rough sleeping and addiction (see this previous post ‘The best speaker at Greenbelt 2011′). Since then we have become friends and done a number of talks together.  

The booklet weaves together my reflections on working with homeless people, along with Chris’ own powerful personal story. He writes about roots of homelessness, the reality of homelessness and his recovery from homelessness.

The following excerpt written by Chris is taken from his section ‘The reality of homelessness’:

“As Big Ben’s chimes ran out across London to indicate the start of 2003 and people celebrated with family and friends all hoping this New Year would bring happiness, health and joy to their lives, I sat alone in someone’s flat surrounded not by friends or family but empty cans of beer and bottles of spirits.

I had been asked to leave the rehabilitation house which had been my home for seven months because I had started drinking once again over the Christmas period 2002. Within weeks, the people who had let me sofa-surf ran out of patience with my drinking and behaviour. It was not long before I found myself with nowhere to sleep and nobody wanted to associate themselves with me.

This is when I started sleeping rough. I was now properly homeless.  Like many people living on the streets today I felt all alone. I no longer saw myself as a member of society, it was like I had become de-humanised, I had no care for the world around me and I had lost the ability to love myself. I lived hour to hour, drink to drink. The one thing I did care about was the thing which was killing me and that was the drink.

When I did sleep it was never for a long period. You become so vulnerable alone at night. Many times I would be awoken by someone trying to rip my blanket or sleeping bag from me. Sometimes members of the human race (the general public I mean) thought it would be fun to urinate over me or want to kick or punch me. 

I witnessed lots of sadness during my time on the street. I would sit and listen to other rough sleepers stories of how they had become homeless. People who became friends would talk about deceased members of their families or loved one, break ups of marriage or a loss of work and other emotional break downs in their lives. Yes of course addictions to drugs or alcohol are key factors for homelessness. But then what are the reasons for addiction? Look deep into the eyes any rough sleeper and you will see the tale of sadness they hold within.

I have come to understand that living as a rough sleeper and an addict I felt dead from within. I was what I call spiritually dead or spiritually bankrupt. My soul had become separated from God – but that did not stop me questioning and blaming him. How could a caring and understanding God let me suffer so much? I would cry out to him to let me die but he didn’t seem to hear me. After three years of living life on the street I had given up hope of ever finding myself, life or love again. I decided on some drastic action.

I walked into a petrol station and poured petrol all over myself with the intention of setting myself on fire and ending my life. I did not manage it…I was sectioned for three months and was sent to Littlebrook Mental Hospital for attempted suicide.”

In the subsequent sections, Chris talks about his recovery from this extreme situation and the role that a local church a played in helping him get clean, sober and come to faith in God. As he puts it:

“I sometimes hear ex-addicts and homeless people say how they ‘found God and it changed their life.’ I don’t think we find God at all. What I do think is that he comes and pulls people like me up from a life of loneliness and sadness and heals us from within.  I did not find God, he found me.”

If you would like to buy the booklet, it is available for £3.95 from the Grove Books website.

About Jon Kuhrt

Jon Kuhrt works with people affected by homelessness, offending and chronic addictions at the West London Mission. He, his wife and three children are part of Streatham Baptist Church and he is a member of the Christians on the Left. He likes football...but loves cricket.
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2 Responses to A real story of homelessness, addiction…and transformation

  1. Reblogged this on Imagine with Scripture and commented:
    I found this on the Internet and it’s a story that we should all read to understand more about homelessness.

  2. Jon,

    Sorry I couldn’t find your email, so please see my comments below. I’ll be sending out this review to our team of Street Pastors:

    Homelessness – Grace, Truth and Transformation by Jon Kuhrt and Chris Ward.
    Grove Books P135 ISBN 9781851748778 £3.95.

    Can I recommend this little booklet to you? It’s a brief but very insightful book that tackles the issues of homelessness and is particularly useful for those who come into contact with homeless people through their involvement with their church activities. It’s only got 28 pages, but is packed full of useful information.

    The main author is Jon Kuhrt, who has been involved with homeless people for over 20 years. As both a Christian and a full time worker in the ‘voluntary sector’ he sees the situation from both sides of the fence and gives clear guidance on how this partnership can work effectively. Complementing Jon’s overview, Chris Ward shares his testimony of how he battled with homelessness and how his life has been transformed.

    From my perspective of being a Street Pastor and coming across homeless people in need of help on a regular basis I had a fair idea of the basic “dos and don’ts”, but Jon’s wealth of experience goes much further. I particularly like the chapter which deals with the need to balance Grace with Truth. Churches/Christians are often good at showing unconditional, unquestioning care for those in need which is a powerful side of our understanding of Grace. In contrast homeless agencies and local authorities will focus on encouraging homeless people to face reality and take greater responsibility for their situation – to tell them the Truth. We must strive to improve our communication with our partner agencies and learn to balance the need for grace with truth so we can see more lives being transformed.

    I have one copy I can lend out, or click below to buy your own copy: http://www.grovebooks.co.uk/cart.php?target=product&product_id=17648&category_id=265
    Thanks

    Quinton Stowell
    Harrow Street Pastors

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